Hey sweet people. If you have taken the time to read this post at my blog thank you so much. I hope that this blesses you in some way. I would love to share with you one part of my journey. I am loving sharing with you more of my walk with Abba. I hope it encourages you in some way to reach for him even more in your walk. I know when I hear stories from others it indeed spurs me on as well. But ya know.... I have not shared enough of my stories in this world to shine for God. I can not sit silent anymore. I did that to much before. Every day that goes by we are all one day closer to meeting him. I want to bless his heart.
This journey took place about a year ago and half ago. How it changed me is this. The first time I decided to do this I said ok Lord I will make a date with you and on that date I will write for just you. I put it on the calendar for the very next day and treated it as if I was on a date. I wrote at such n such a time I'll have a date with Jesus. Well the next day came and I was busy about the house and dealing with the families needs and my own selfish ones too. I was standing after the time I scheduled a date with Jesus at my sink washing dishes... it was on my heart yikes I made a date with Jesus and I am late but I ignored it.
Yes he has feelings to. Yes we can talk to him any time but I was going to make this an actual date night for him. As I was running late I was thinking oh,,, it's the Lord he will understand why I am late. I'll get to him later. But I was standing there with other thoughts going through my head as I said I'll also do this task and this other one first. But I felt him remind me in my heart. I heard his gentle voice "what about me"? Three simple words loud and clear yet so gentle. I knew it was him.Your taking great care of your family but what about me I thought he was telling me in those three words. I felt like, oh no, the purpose of my goal of date night is to bless his heart and make him feel loved and important to me. I basically had said my dishes that can wait are more important than keeping my special date night with Jesus! I felt at that moment like Martha running about the house instead of Mary sitting at his feet. WOW. To feel his heart and know he was looking forward to it really blew me away. I stopped right away what I was doing and ran upstairs for my date. I even went and combed my hair for him and got dolled up some.
I had family all around me about the house and my room was a third story loft at the time so I did not have much privacy. So I put on some instrumental soaking worship music on my head set to drown out house noises. I also grabbed some paper and pen. I grabbed my blanket to put over me as a tent . I yelled to everyone I am on a date with Jesus so leave me alone. LOL. I sat in my little tent and apologized to the Lord and told him I was so excited to be on a date with my savior. I sat in silence and focused on him before I started to write his letter.. then I wrote what ever the first words from my heart to him was. I also cried tears. I wrote and wrote the words just flowed from my heart. I did not have to chase words or search hard. This letter is between me and the Lord only no one else so I didn't focus on it being perfect but I do have a goal to use this time soon to work on my penmanship for Abba while I write to him. I could indeed write better! LOL.
I knew with what he laid on my heart in the kitchen when he spoke to me "what about me", that he was indeed present. He is always present actually with us but this particular time I was aware of it. That's the difference. So as I wrote I stopped and closed my eyes at some point to rest and ponder him even more sitting still no writing. All of the sudden a vision flashed in front of me clear as a movie. Clear as in real life not foggy like a dream. I saw Jesus himself sitting on the edge of a rock, on the edge of the sea. He was smiling at me! Me? Yes me? I was like oh my. WOW. He is taking the time to smile at me? Is this real? Is this my imagination? I am stubborn and feel unworthy so I open my eyes and it is gone. I see within my tent. I was like is that my mind or really him? So I close my eyes again. Boom right away he is back. Smiling. He is looking me in the eyes but he is a good little distance from me. I watch him watching me from the edge of the rock he was sitting on sideways. I thought I know he is looking at me and I would love to see him up close better so like in a movie with zooming gently I was zooming in and coming closer to him he was doing it for me, he knew my thoughts. I was yet again blown away so I opened my eyes. Like a fool. I was not totally believing what was happening to me. I thought surely its my imagination this is to good to be true. Who am I that Jesus would visit me in this special way? So I tried once more. Boom he was there when I closed my eyes clear as day right where we left off as in real life just as good as a person sitting right in front of me clear as a bell. I gave in to his drawing me in closer and before I knew it we looked eye to eye.
He was still sitting on the edge of the rock on the edge of the sea looking into my eyes smiling at me. I was so blessed. He was in a white robe with an amazing sash around him. He looked perfect. He was so loving and so peaceful. His smile was captivating me. He spoke no words to me but said everything in his smile and stare. I felt him happy with me that I had made time to have a date night with him and happy I was writing him a love letter from my heart. Then I noticed something in particular standing out he wanted me to notice. I heard him communicating with me with out him speaking words. I noticed the sun was setting on this beach we where on. The sunset was on his face. I could see the rays of light and rays of dark. He would not allow me to turn to look but to only see his face. I looked and said Jesus your trying to tell me something with this sunset on your face aren't you? And he smiled at me. I told him how much I love him and I stared at him again then I opened my eyes. He was gone. I closed my eyes again and he was gone. The open vision was gone. But remember the number of conformation is three. To confirm I saw him I had tested it three times. On the fourth he was gone.
The visit was fast but so very impactful. I wish I had not opened my eyes so soon that third time so I could of been in that moment with him longer. But the messages was loud and clear what he was sending me. He was happy I was taking time to be with him. He made me feel so important those moments and helped me to feel loved by him. We all know if your saved that the Lord loves you but do you really feel it? I often do not because I have made so many mistakes in my life I often wonder how does he still love me? That is my fault, not his of why I feel this way. So that visit was important. He also was showing me three different things in particular. Remember three is confirmation. He was on the edge of a rock by the edge of the sea. Those are the first two. I saw the sun setting on his face, that was number three. He wanted me to pay special attention to that. I took many weeks after this visit to seek him on what he was telling me and I feel that it all pointed to that this world as we know it or life as we know it is almost up or on the edge of something big. The time is almost done here before he returns I now for sure strongly feel this. It is surely much closer that it was 2000 years ago! I can only hope that he is about to come for us. I am not saying that he is coming right off on any particular day but maybe very soon. The stage of the sun setting on his face was almost done! He was indeed showing me a sign to share with people. It reminds me of the story in Matthew 25: 1-13 take a look below. Remember we are the Bride of Christ.
Matthew 25 Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)25 “The Kingdom of Heaven at that time will be like ten bridesmaids who took their lamps and went out to meet the groom. 2 Five of them were foolish and five were sensible. 3 The foolish ones took lamps with them but no oil, 4 whereas the others took flasks of oil with their lamps. 5 Now the bridegroom was late, so they all went to sleep. 6 It was the middle of the night when the cry rang out, ‘The bridegroom is here! Go out to meet him!’ 7 The girls all woke up and prepared their lamps for lighting. 8 The foolish ones said to the sensible ones, ‘Give us some of your oil, because our lamps are going out.’ 9 ‘No,’ they replied, ‘there may not be enough for both you and us. Go to the oil dealers and buy some for yourselves.’ 10 But as they were going off to buy, the bridegroom came. Those who were ready went with him to the wedding feast, and the door was shut. 11 Later, the other bridesmaids came. ‘Sir! Sir!’ they cried, ‘Let us in!’ 12 But he answered, ‘Indeed! I tell you, I don’t know you!’ 13 So stay alert, because you know neither the day nor the hour.
I want to be ready for my groom. I want to be ready when he arrives for me! What about you? Will you dismiss looking for him to come? Will you be lazy in your watching for him or will you be ready? I want to be ready. I am not taking any chances now a days! I used to be lazy in my watching. Not any more. And his vision gave me such hope that it will be soon!
The act of writing to him or having this special date time is about how you feel about him. It not only blesses his heart, it blesses yours in so many ways. It is freeing. It is healing. It is loving and yet another great way to show love to him that some folks may not of thought of. The Lord is a real person. He has feelings just like us. When was the last time you made a date with Jesus? I do not mean or typical devotional time or seeking him in prayer for yourself or someone else needs. I mean showing up to simply focus on him and his needs and not our needs and bless him somehow? Remember he created us to fellowship with him! That's why the love letters are so good. I love to seal the letters once done with a special sticker never to be opened again. I already know he has been touched by my letter. I have not seen another vision of him since that day but I know he is watching and with me when I take the time for him and it's all about blessing his heart. I am so honored he did do something special for me on one of our dates maybe he will surprise you on one too.