Hey sweet people. If you have taken the time to read this post at my blog thank you so much. I hope that this blesses you in some way. I would love to share with you one part of my journey. I am loving sharing with you more of my walk with Abba. I hope it encourages you in some way to reach for him even more in your walk. I know when I hear stories from others it indeed spurs me on as well. But ya know.... I have not shared enough of my stories in this world to shine for God. I can not sit silent anymore. I did that to much before. Every day that goes by we are all one day closer to meeting him. I want to bless his heart.
This journey took place about a year ago and half ago. How it changed me is this. The first time I decided to do this I said ok Lord I will make a date with you and on that date I will write for just you. I put it on the calendar for the very next day and treated it as if I was on a date. I wrote at such n such a time I'll have a date with Jesus. Well the next day came and I was busy about the house and dealing with the families needs and my own selfish ones too. I was standing after the time I scheduled a date with Jesus at my sink washing dishes... it was on my heart yikes I made a date with Jesus and I am late but I ignored it.
Yes he has feelings to. Yes we can talk to him any time but I was going to make this an actual date night for him. As I was running late I was thinking oh,,, it's the Lord he will understand why I am late. I'll get to him later. But I was standing there with other thoughts going through my head as I said I'll also do this task and this other one first. But I felt him remind me in my heart. I heard his gentle voice "what about me"? Three simple words loud and clear yet so gentle. I knew it was him.Your taking great care of your family but what about me I thought he was telling me in those three words. I felt like, oh no, the purpose of my goal of date night is to bless his heart and make him feel loved and important to me. I basically had said my dishes that can wait are more important than keeping my special date night with Jesus! I felt at that moment like Martha running about the house instead of Mary sitting at his feet. WOW. To feel his heart and know he was looking forward to it really blew me away. I stopped right away what I was doing and ran upstairs for my date. I even went and combed my hair for him and got dolled up some.
I had family all around me about the house and my room was a third story loft at the time so I did not have much privacy. So I put on some instrumental soaking worship music on my head set to drown out house noises. I also grabbed some paper and pen. I grabbed my blanket to put over me as a tent . I yelled to everyone I am on a date with Jesus so leave me alone. LOL. I sat in my little tent and apologized to the Lord and told him I was so excited to be on a date with my savior. I sat in silence and focused on him before I started to write his letter.. then I wrote what ever the first words from my heart to him was. I also cried tears. I wrote and wrote the words just flowed from my heart. I did not have to chase words or search hard. This letter is between me and the Lord only no one else so I didn't focus on it being perfect but I do have a goal to use this time soon to work on my penmanship for Abba while I write to him. I could indeed write better! LOL.
I knew with what he laid on my heart in the kitchen when he spoke to me "what about me", that he was indeed present. He is always present actually with us but this particular time I was aware of it. That's the difference. So as I wrote I stopped and closed my eyes at some point to rest and ponder him even more sitting still no writing. All of the sudden a vision flashed in front of me clear as a movie. Clear as in real life not foggy like a dream. I saw Jesus himself sitting on the edge of a rock, on the edge of the sea. He was smiling at me! Me? Yes me? I was like oh my. WOW. He is taking the time to smile at me? Is this real? Is this my imagination? I am stubborn and feel unworthy so I open my eyes and it is gone. I see within my tent. I was like is that my mind or really him? So I close my eyes again. Boom right away he is back. Smiling. He is looking me in the eyes but he is a good little distance from me. I watch him watching me from the edge of the rock he was sitting on sideways. I thought I know he is looking at me and I would love to see him up close better so like in a movie with zooming gently I was zooming in and coming closer to him he was doing it for me, he knew my thoughts. I was yet again blown away so I opened my eyes. Like a fool. I was not totally believing what was happening to me. I thought surely its my imagination this is to good to be true. Who am I that Jesus would visit me in this special way? So I tried once more. Boom he was there when I closed my eyes clear as day right where we left off as in real life just as good as a person sitting right in front of me clear as a bell. I gave in to his drawing me in closer and before I knew it we looked eye to eye.
He was still sitting on the edge of the rock on the edge of the sea looking into my eyes smiling at me. I was so blessed. He was in a white robe with an amazing sash around him. He looked perfect. He was so loving and so peaceful. His smile was captivating me. He spoke no words to me but said everything in his smile and stare. I felt him happy with me that I had made time to have a date night with him and happy I was writing him a love letter from my heart. Then I noticed something in particular standing out he wanted me to notice. I heard him communicating with me with out him speaking words. I noticed the sun was setting on this beach we where on. The sunset was on his face. I could see the rays of light and rays of dark. He would not allow me to turn to look but to only see his face. I looked and said Jesus your trying to tell me something with this sunset on your face aren't you? And he smiled at me. I told him how much I love him and I stared at him again then I opened my eyes. He was gone. I closed my eyes again and he was gone. The open vision was gone. But remember the number of conformation is three. To confirm I saw him I had tested it three times. On the fourth he was gone.
The visit was fast but so very impactful. I wish I had not opened my eyes so soon that third time so I could of been in that moment with him longer. But the messages was loud and clear what he was sending me. He was happy I was taking time to be with him. He made me feel so important those moments and helped me to feel loved by him. We all know if your saved that the Lord loves you but do you really feel it? I often do not because I have made so many mistakes in my life I often wonder how does he still love me? That is my fault, not his of why I feel this way. So that visit was important. He also was showing me three different things in particular. Remember three is confirmation. He was on the edge of a rock by the edge of the sea. Those are the first two. I saw the sun setting on his face, that was number three. He wanted me to pay special attention to that. I took many weeks after this visit to seek him on what he was telling me and I feel that it all pointed to that this world as we know it or life as we know it is almost up or on the edge of something big. The time is almost done here before he returns I now for sure strongly feel this. It is surely much closer that it was 2000 years ago! I can only hope that he is about to come for us. I am not saying that he is coming right off on any particular day but maybe very soon. The stage of the sun setting on his face was almost done! He was indeed showing me a sign to share with people. It reminds me of the story in Matthew 25: 1-13 take a look below. Remember we are the Bride of Christ.
Matthew 25 Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)25 “The Kingdom of Heaven at that time will be like ten bridesmaids who took their lamps and went out to meet the groom. 2 Five of them were foolish and five were sensible. 3 The foolish ones took lamps with them but no oil, 4 whereas the others took flasks of oil with their lamps. 5 Now the bridegroom was late, so they all went to sleep. 6 It was the middle of the night when the cry rang out, ‘The bridegroom is here! Go out to meet him!’ 7 The girls all woke up and prepared their lamps for lighting. 8 The foolish ones said to the sensible ones, ‘Give us some of your oil, because our lamps are going out.’ 9 ‘No,’ they replied, ‘there may not be enough for both you and us. Go to the oil dealers and buy some for yourselves.’ 10 But as they were going off to buy, the bridegroom came. Those who were ready went with him to the wedding feast, and the door was shut. 11 Later, the other bridesmaids came. ‘Sir! Sir!’ they cried, ‘Let us in!’ 12 But he answered, ‘Indeed! I tell you, I don’t know you!’ 13 So stay alert, because you know neither the day nor the hour.
I want to be ready for my groom. I want to be ready when he arrives for me! What about you? Will you dismiss looking for him to come? Will you be lazy in your watching for him or will you be ready? I want to be ready. I am not taking any chances now a days! I used to be lazy in my watching. Not any more. And his vision gave me such hope that it will be soon!
The act of writing to him or having this special date time is about how you feel about him. It not only blesses his heart, it blesses yours in so many ways. It is freeing. It is healing. It is loving and yet another great way to show love to him that some folks may not of thought of. The Lord is a real person. He has feelings just like us. When was the last time you made a date with Jesus? I do not mean or typical devotional time or seeking him in prayer for yourself or someone else needs. I mean showing up to simply focus on him and his needs and not our needs and bless him somehow? Remember he created us to fellowship with him! That's why the love letters are so good. I love to seal the letters once done with a special sticker never to be opened again. I already know he has been touched by my letter. I have not seen another vision of him since that day but I know he is watching and with me when I take the time for him and it's all about blessing his heart. I am so honored he did do something special for me on one of our dates maybe he will surprise you on one too.
Has life ever gotten hard for you? Have you ever had "stuff" happen so much back to back that your left wondering what in the world? Life is not easy that is for sure. Things happen in seasons and for a reason. We may not always see the reason why, but rest assured God has a plan.
I love at Bible Gateway they have so many translations of the Bible to study from. I like the NIV translation as seen in my art above. But, I love the Complete Jewish Bible translation of Philippians 3:14 too.
Philippians 3:14Complete Jewish Bible (CJB) 14 I keep pursuing the goal in order to win the prize offered by God’s upward calling in the Messiah Yeshua.
Ok right there is such an awesome wow factor in that verse. Ok,,, as if salvation in itself is not enough God even will reward us for pressing on in this life and living out your walk in Messiah Christ Jesus. To think God has a prize for us? God is such a good daddy. He is so amazing there are no words.
What are you doing to press on? Are you just floating by barely? There are times we may end up like that for a moment but you should never stay that way. Are you rising up above the waves of the storm to not let them bury you? Or are you walking on them? Keep your eyes on the one who has saved you already. Jesus. Keep your eyes on him at all times in all circumstances. Simply put, keep your life centered on him Yeshua, Mighty Jesus Christ the King of Kings, Lord of Lords. If you do and live focused on him and what he has already done about your problem at the Cross and what he is doing now and what he is about to do on your behalf in the future, then worry CAN NOT pull you under for good.
Imagine while in prayer walking up to the throne of the Father and laying your problem down at his feet. Say, Father I can not do this. You take care of it for me. He will. But do not walk back and pick it up. Let it alone!
Worry is of course the opposite of faith. Faith pleases God. So if faith pleases God and it is opposite of worry then, don't worry, be happy! Have faith that God's got this. Remember that song from the 80-'s? For real listen to it and be happy! Press on. It will get better! God even has a prize waiting for you on the other side. I think he is pleased when he sees us stopping worrying so much and trusting in him!
So in closing. The two good reasons to not worry be happy? God's really got this and sees the solutions so do not carry the weight of life alone. And he even has a prize for you later.
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There was a time I was a single mom. I was young with two little ones to care for. I was working every odd job I could when my kids were at their dads on visitation those first few months. I had to work around my kids because I did not have the money for childcare that first year nor any helping hands on a regular basis. I had originally been a young stay at home mom all the years prior when my husband was working, with no college or skills. I had to budget every dollar wisely to get by those days as a single mom. Now before my marriage went to shambles God had been working in my heart on the subject of biblical stewardship and tithing.
Just because I was a single mom it did not mean I was excused from the test of tithing, this was what the Holy Spirit was laying on my heart. As I went to church one day at a new church I was attending, it was yet again heavy on my heart. He was actually in this personal test, asking me to give it all. I reasoned with the Lord that I only had seven dollars cash on me to last till my next pay whenever that may be. With two little ones to feed and to put gas in the car I didn't know how I would do it without the seven dollars. Now the tithe is giving a tenth but God wanted my faithfulness that day.
Malachi 3:8-10 [Full Chapter]
Can a person rob God? Yet you rob me. But you ask, ‘How have we robbed you?’ In tenths and voluntary contributions. A curse is on you, on your whole nation, because you rob me. Bring the whole tenth into the storehouse, so that there will be food in my house, and put me to the test,” says Adonai-Tzva’ot. “See if I won’t open for you the floodgates of heaven and pour out for you a blessing far beyond your needs.
Proverbs 3:9-10Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)
9 Honor Adonai with your wealth and with the firstfruits of all your income.
10 Then your granaries will be filled and your vats overflow with new wine.
I decided to trust God because of course it all belongs to Him. Why we would he prompt me to give and to actually give it all if He was not going to take care of me? God will not let his children beg for bread according to Psalm 37:5 . Faith is believing what you can not see Hebrews 11:1 and faith is action. So I set out to test Him on the tithe.
Malachi 3:10Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)
10 Bring the whole tenth into the storehouse, so that there will be food in my house,
and put me to the test,”says Adonai-Tzva’ot. “See if I won’t open for you the floodgates of heaven and pour out for you a blessing far beyond your needs.
I will admit as I walked up to the altar to put my church offering into the basket I was a bit afraid but I made up in my mind to trust God more than I had fear. So I happily gave. I knew God would take care of us. I went about after that worshipping Him during the service knowing it would be ok. As I was leaving a sweet old lady whom I barely knew stopped me. She said God spoke to her heart to give me this. I thought she handed me a note of encouragement. I thanked her and hugged her and wished her a happy Sunday.
2 Corinthians 9:7Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)
7 Each should give according to what he has decided in his heart, not grudgingly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.[a]
I went to my car to put the children in their car seats. I sat ready to drive when I felt I couldn't wait to read the sweet note. I opened the paper and there was no note but a check for 70 dollars! She did not know me or my situation. She did not know the test God was doing in me that day. Only the Holy Spirit knew. I sat crying. I sat crying at her sweet giving. I sat crying at my God who does what He says He will. God turned my 7 dollars into 70 within the hour and took care of me! He is always faithful.
In 2017 where will your focus be? In 2017 where will your alignment be?
I know some will create new years resulutions. Some will create goals. But do you think of your center focus? Your partnerships and alignments? What will you focus on and what will you align with or whom?
At this moment this week I am experiancing a renewal with Abba Father. First I want to talk about focus. I want my focus to be what he wants it to be and right now that focus is on Him. I want my focus in 2017 to be that of what ever is true, noble, righteous, pure, loveable, vituous, or praiseworthy.
Philippians 4:8 [Full Chapter]
In conclusion, brothers, focus your thoughts on what is true, noble, righteous, pure, lovable or admirable, on some virtue or on something praiseworthy.
When your mind is set on things of the Father it is hard for negative stinking thinking to over take you. When you focus on him and good things it is hard for depression to cling to you and over take you. If you are a beliver in Christ Jesus your one day closer to meeting him, so why not rejoice for things to come even if at this moment you have had a really bad day! He will deliver you.
Focus your minds on the things above, not on things here on earth.
Alignment according to the dictionary means a position of agreement or alliance. What are you coming into agreement with? Is it the troubles the devil has shown you lately? Is it depression? Is it finacial brokeness? Is it false peace? Is it realationship troubles?
Or are you aligning yourself with what God sees about your situations? He sees the victory and has already won it on the cross. He just wants you to align with him and he will guide you out of the darkness of the situation.
1 Corinthians 15:57 [Full Chapter]
but thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Yeshua the Messiah!
I want to align with and come into agreement with God's take on things. His take is what truly matters! Not letting the tempary before my eyes or hard moment overwhelm me. His will is the safest place to be on earth. Walking with the Father on his path is the right road period. Ask yourself what will you align yourself with in 2017. Make sure it is partnerships that will be healthy for your soul and future.
I choose to align and partner with God's plans for me in 2017. That is where true sucess will be found in all areas of my life. All glory and honor be unto God! I know when I make plans without God I fail. I want my partner to be God. Whom will you align with this year? Yourself, the world, or the most high God?
Hebrews 1:14New International Version (NIV) 14 Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?
I was about 3 years old on my way home from up state NY with my mom and dad. This was back in the days when you could ride without seat belts. I was in the back of a pick up truck sitting on a little seat that was not a proper truck seat because it was in a truck bed. With one of those fiber class covers on the back of the truck you would see in the 70's -80's a lot. There was also a LOT of glass bottles in boxes they were bringing back from NY to NC to collect cash on. Well I was so very young and so very little. I was very petite. Somewhere in PA I think it was they had a severe accident. My mother was pregnant with my little brother at the time. She was rushed to the hospital. I heard her yelling somehow or talking and she did not want to leave until they found my body. She was in very bad shape and had to leave. Now to get to my point.... I will now recount the events from my perspective as a toddler below!
I was having a good time keeping myself content as a little toddler could be playing with my little fake purse and the goodies it contained. I loved little tiny things to play with and a paper & pen. I was busy when all of the sudden I heard yelling and the most awful noises I had ever heard in my tiny life... I didn't know what the noises was I had never heard it all before but the moment I began to hear them I saw the truck bed moving in a direction I knew it was NOT to move and all the glass coming for me. I was in an instant more sacred than I had ever been so far in my young little life.... but in an instant I saw a flash of large light consume me. I couldn't see a thing but that bright bright blinding light. At first it startled me. It picked me up and threw me into darkness, the light was gone. This light was so amazing and I felt the most wonderful love, safety and comfort I had felt since the womb (If you did not read that story of what I remember life to be like in the womb please read it here.) It felt so familiar like I knew this light somehow.
Psalm 91:11New International Version (NIV) 11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
It was all so very very fast. I screamed mommy!! MOMMY I want my mommy as it was holding me. The voice I call it came while I was in the darkness. "You are safe" it said. I spoke into the dark who are you. It said " stay here, your safe" I said where am I (this place felt so tight). It said " I placed you in safety until they find you" I said ok Mr. I said what happen I am scared why do they need to find me? He said " a bad accident happen but you are safe " I said will they find me Mr. He said yes very soon. Do not be scared. I heard this voice talk to me while I was in the dark and it all happen so fast. I said I hurt Mr. I hurt. Why am I in a ball. He was gone.
He would not answer me I got scared. I realized as I had been talking to him it was not with my mouth somehow we spoke without words with our mind. So I began to cry with my mouth and I mean really cry! I cried and cried..... amidst my cries I heard all sorts of sounds on "the outside what ever that was" I heard loud crunches and crashes. I heard men voices. I heard yelling. I heard a woman's voice. None of these voices sounded like my mom or dad. I was so very scared so it made me cry all the more & louder. I realize now as an adult if I had not cried they would not of found me!! My cries so loud is how they found me. Suddenly I heard a voice say keep crying keep crying. I had no idea really that people was looking for me I had not fully in my young mind made that connection yet. I thought it was my bright light friend again but then I realized it was not his same comforting voice. But this voice said keep crying baby girl keep crying so we can find you! I didn't know I was in a wreck... my young toddler mind could not comprehend it. Every one was accounted for but me. The truck was totaled by a 18 wheeler. So I obey that strange voice and cried harder thinking I was doing good somehow. All the sudden a while later I felt a jult. I felt my body being tossed around. They had found me.... I was stuffed inside a large hard cased suitcase ( you know those from the 60-70-80's) laying safely inside on top of a pile of glass & twisted medal in the twisted up trunk bed.
One of the reasons they could not find me at first was when they looked in the rumble all they saw was metal, glass & luggage they did not know I was actually there some how in the suitcase. I had not started crying yet and they did not see my body. I had been upset the angel left me. But I realize as an adult now that had he not stopped talking to me to comfort me I would of never started to cry in fear. They wouldn't of found me in time. Because my mom's life was hanging on a thread and she wouldn't leave in the ambulance till she heard word I was alive. SO they thought I was gone somehow under it all. The angel I now know is whom I was speaking to when I saw a bright light consume me and pick me up and throw me in the dark place "the suit case" in an instant saved my life. I would of been chopped liver had he not done that for me. I remember even some of what the rescuers was saying.... O my God we found her she is here she is here and I heard loud cheers of lots of people. I heard my dads voice saying that is impossible. That suitcase was full and locked with a key.No one could explain what happen and how I got there but I knew. I tried to baby babel in my tears a nice man in light put me there. But I do not think anyone believed me. There was no time for me to of unlocked it and crawled in. I didn't even have the key and as a toddler not even realized it was locked or how to unlock one in the instant of a high speed wreck. I remember when the man in a suit of some sorts ( later I realized as I aged it was an EMT man.) opened the suit case and I saw the day light for that first time in what seemed forever. I knew something big somehow had just happen. He hugged me and said hey little girl your going to be ok. He climbed out with me as I heard some cheering. He handed me to my dad... I cried but my dad quickly handed me to a strange lady as he ran away saying take care of her.... he ran to the ambulance my mom refused to leave in her major condition till they found me alive. He said take her go go go go now,,,and I was crying for my mommy and wanted to see her. They said I had no time mommy had to go she had no time. I had no idea if I would ever see her again at that moment. I was then left with the strange lady for what seemed like a very long time until my Dad came back for me. I remember my auntie came up from hours away to take me home as my Dad stayed on with my mom. That is all I remember about the wreck. I felt honored to remember such detail at such a young age of this amazing event. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!!!!! I can no longer sit silent holding these memories & experiences to myself. It is time to use them to recount the God things of God and bring him Glory!