I am not a swimmer. In the last couple of years I have learned to doggie paddle some. I have a fear of putting my head under water. I have a fear of water, deep water to be exact. This summer I was brave on many things. But besides moving forward with my surgery this was topic number 2 on list ... to swim on the deep end.
One day I went walking alone to the park last week. It was one of those it's just so perfect outside days. I was so happy to go walking alone with God to talk to. I had made the date with him & him alone the day before to do it. This summer has been one of the most stressful summers I think I have ever had. So it was truly refreshing to walk alone & is something I normally wasn't doing. Once I got to the park I sat for an hour knitting. I loved watching the people, hearing the leaves in the wind & talking to God. I have had a super hard time with regaining my energy back, since in surgery they took my ability to make certain hormones a lady needs. If you have been reading my blog for a while you will know why they had to. I am BRCA 2. Anywho... I was walking home and was so hot. I felt so much better after my short walk & knew the walk helped me to gain some energy! I saw the pool as I walked by and saw no one was there. I saw my opportunity to continue this alone time with just myself & God and I had the energy to do it. I went home threw on my swim suit and went swimming. It was the first time in my life I ever went swimming alone. It was so refreshing. The water temp was perfect. I had a blast! I was swimming around pretty well & floating well. Although I did not put my head under water. I still will not do that.
So.... I said God make me brave help me to swim in the deep end. I went over and did it. Four times! God empowered me to face yet another fear in the face and defeat it! He kept my head above the water and I floated around just fine. I was not fearful of what lay under me in the depths. I only keep my eyes on Jesus in my heart & he kept my head above water and and I did not sink.
It taught me so much & reaffirmed somethings. Life is so full of problems that might pull us down into the deep. The deep of worry, the deep of depression & so much more. We are to relax and simply put all our problems on Him and our eyes on him. He will help us keep our head above water of life. We must face fear in the face and not let it rule us. We are children of the king and all of what Satan throws our way is certainly under our feet as it says in Romans 16:20 The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you.