Have you ever prayed to God for something & His answer was no? God will always answer prayer. Either with a yes, no or not now. For a while now my heart has been so set on a few things & to all of them God has said no. I sat today & cried in self pity.
Then His gentle spirit spoke softly inside of me reminders of all I have to be thankful for. I felt pretty ashamed that I was begging God for another child to love when it dawned on me that there are some women who have never experienced giving birth to their own children. Who has never had a child and so desperately wants one of their own. I was reminded that I already have experienced that twice. Sure my children are teenagers now but they are still mine to love & came from my womb. Thats special & I am grateful. Then as I drove my car my mind started racing with all I am thankful for & it over whelmed me. A few examples where, I am so thankful my mom came to Jesus for real & got baptized a year before she died. I am so thankful that ( our relationship was not good for years & I didn't think she loved me) before she passed she let me know how much she loved me and was proud of me. I am thankful to have had a big brother & before he died he let me know how proud he was of my accomplishments with my children only months before his death. I made my big brother proud! How many can say that. I realized I am thankful that I had food to eat today when some one out there is starving. I am thankful I had clothes to ware & many to choose form when someone out there has only one outfit it you call it that. I am thankful that I had a roof over my head today to stay dry & warm. I am thankful that I had the ability to drive a car with both feet & both hands freely when someone else has those body parts missing or paralyzed dreaming they could drive. I could be mobile in the comfort of my car instead of walking the hundreds of miles a year that half of the globes population has to walk in the elements.
I am thankful my 12 year old little girl leaves me sweet loving little notes & drawings like these you see!
My list of thankfulness goes on & on and will actually never be complete. But the one thing I am truly grateful for most of all is the fact I am saved by the grace of God through Jesus ( Yeshua) Gods only son & I know I will live forever in His Kingdom. How dare me cry in self pity!!!!!!